Explode!!!

How she gets what I want ... because of her looks!

Just one guy in the whole wide world,

nothing to lose, should I ask him out? 

He's talking to me, is that a good sign? 

We have things in common, he's so divine.

He's one of those guys, and still not like others,

he is awesome and sweet, probably an awesome lover.

I love talking to him, when I see he's online I shriek,

when I talk to him I feel dumb, sometimes like a creep.

I compliment him, he seems to like it, 

we have our inside joke, a guy that nothing seems wrong with.

Then he has to log off - he says "tell your friends"

I say "will do, now goodbye", but before the convo ends

he says "especially that one girl, she seems pretty fit"

wait, what is he trying to say? Does that mean that's it? 

Does that mean all the inside jokes and all the talk was nothing?

He likes her better than me our time didn't mean things to him.

I am not saying we've fallen for each other, 

all I am saying is that he could have acted proper 

and not told me that all he goes after are looks, 

he doesn't even know her and says she is sexy, that sucks.

She is my best friend, the one I trust most,

but I cannot tell her this, I feel really lost.

He is 23, I am 16 - so what?

Does age difference matter? I think it does not.

I know this sounds weird, and I sound like a creep

but seriously? I know him better, I know him deep.

She knows nothing about him, not saying I hate her, 

but why would he choose her over me - does he want to date her? 

I am dying to know what he'll say to her, 

will he like her without her liking him as a singer?
A singer of a band that has awesome songs, 

he says "I love talking to fans", but she's not one.

Well not yet, she has never even heard of his band,

she doesn't know who he is but he doesn't care. 

He thinks she looks awesome, she does indeed, 

but I saw him first - and I want him bad. 

She does not deserve him, but that is that. 

All I'm saying is that he hurt my feelings, 

he doesn't know that I like him, 

he doesn't know that I crave him.

That makes it sound even creepier, 

but you know what? I seriously don't care. 

Why do boys go after looks? 

She is 18 since September, 

would he like to date, because she is older? 

Would he actually do that after all that he told me? 

Like how he has never time for a girlfriend to be with?

But they live far apart, she in the US, he in the UK 

they woulnd't be together 24/7 - would that be ok? 

I don't know what to do, should I tell him how I feel? 

If I don't we can still talk the normal way, 

but I don't think that way it can stay.

It cannot go on like this and I am going crazy,

I love my best friend, but I want to be his lady.

I guess there's nothing I can do, it will stay that way,
I hope he won't read this - or whatever, it's ok.
His personality is awesome, except for this little thing, 
I like him the way he is - doesn't that count for him? 
I shall stop this now, this is getting stupid
I don't hate my best friend - the person I hate is a guy called cupid!